Alrighty. More black cloud? yes. last tuesday i was forced to go to the ER with a temperature of 104.2 and a headache like you'd never believe. i went to the ER at one hospital. it was a nightmare. they couldn't figure out what was wrong. The worst part...i had a blood pressure of 56/31 and a heart rate of 177. thats FLIPPING bad! so they stuck me with an IV.

Pumping bags of IV into me, nothing was working and my head was hurting and my eyes went hazy. So, after my chest xray, they brought me into an ER room, tilted the head of the bed way down. this was to let blood into my head because i must not have been getting much blood circulating. that was fucked up. sorry for my language. the blood was pounding in my head and i had had about 5 liters of IV shit in me. nothing was working again. and my vision was getting worse, but this time i was crying. Now, apparently, i started crying and i couldn't breathe. at on point i was yelling at everyone to help me. my dad told me that when i finally calmed down, i turned my head to him with tears everywhere and begged him to make everything stop. holy shit, right? i barely remember that. and actually..my dad and kirstyn (they were the only two that were there with me) and the doctors werent sure if id make it through the night...

anywho, that hospital couldn't get me better so after a few hours they transferred me to a nearby hospital. i had to wear one of those swine flu masks. fml. now, this part gets even hazier, so ill try my best to remember. i got in there and they stuck me with another IV. one in each arm. god i HATE needles. at this point, steven and his mom were there. i felt a tad better, but i was still out of it. because by then i had been pumped with 7 liters and still going.

since i was all hooked up to two IVs, a heart rate moniter, and a blood pressure pump i couldnt really get up. once youve had 7 liters of liquid....Y0U HAVE TO PEE. so they stuck me with a cathidar. fml even more. they did tests after tests with me and had them sent to the lab. they were pretty sure i had a staff infection. but where you ask?

THE WORST PLACE EVER! the place where..happy times are made and babies come out. how the fuck'd it get there?! so now we find that i have a staff infection in my..areas. they were stumped because why would a staff infection do this?? turns out i had TOXIC SHOCK. the infection caused me to get toxic shock.

blood pressure still bottoming up, they put me in the pediatric ICU. yes, it was that bad. i was there for 2 days! yeah..you heard me. i was in the ICU for 2 days. i had had 5 IVs, a blood pressure pump, a heart rate moniter, and blood circulating wraps on my legs all through those two days. i had gained about 10 pounds and hadnt walked once in those two days. i barely slept for more than 4 hours a night.

i did make good friends with the doctors. i actually do miss those doctors and nurses. anyways, so then i was finally put into a normal hospital room..with a roomate. i mustve annoyed her. because when they finally took the cathidar out, i had to pee every 15 minutes. and i could unhook myself from all my IVs and moniters. so, about 3 things would start beeping and they wouldnt stop until i plugged them back in. HAHA.

finally, i was released. missing 3 days of school and about to miss 3 more because i cant go to school just yet. im so tired and extremely sore from everything. my arms absolutely kill from all the IVs. i went to the doctors today and i have to go back in 3 months to see if the staff is gone. which means NOTHING can go in my..places until its gone. so, theyre putting me on birth control so i dont have to deal with lady problems. FML!

well thats about it. just thought id inform you all...if anyone actually reads these.. its funny cause my dad was telling his boss why he was missing work and his boss knows about my family. and my dad goes, "well lindsey has some rare staff infection and its pretty much a mystery right now." and then his boss cuts him off and goes, "Well yeah! if theres any rare infection in the world, you family is bound to get it!"

hahah. sorry i thought that was funny. anywho, ima be on my way now.